Tuesday, March 28, 2006

Today was one of my slower days and I've been able to take it easy since 2 p.m. I feel a little guilty about it, actually. I spent most of the day planning and figuring out how to make fake fishing poles so I can do a vocabulary fishing game with the little guys. Since then I've been reading, trying to figure out what kind of crap virus infected our computer last week, and trying to get motivated enough to vacuum.

One thing I did want to comment about on this particular blog is that I am feeling more at home here and capable of getting things done by myself. It feels like a home to me, although back in the mountains will always be my real home. I'm not sure if that will ever go away. I feel so lucky to have such good friends back there and I think of you all every single day, even if I am total crap about e-mailing. The more hours I work here, though, the better I feel. Having a job definitely did make all the difference in the world as I feel connected to people around me, and the increase in pay helps me feel not poor. If I want to buy a book, I can, darn it. That's a relief.

I have no idea what really has made this into a home for me, but S. and the cat are obvious components. The job and the book club are others. Another factor is probably that I am able to find my way around Carrefour much, much better than before, despite the fact that they always keep moving things around on me. (I hate that). The honest truth is that I do love the U.S., and would be just fine going back there if that's the direction our lives took. I would even say I would be delighted to be closer to all of my family and friends, but that I would be losing something from this end. On the other hand, I love it here and will also be just fine staying here (and visiting every year) unless something major happens. I feel guilty saying that, because I do miss everyone so, so much and it is hard not to be able to see the little ones growing up and learning how to do new things. Thank the Good Lord for the internet, is all I can say, even if it sucks up too much of my time when I should be cleaning the house instead.


bcinfrance said...

New-ISH expat? You are brand new! It's an long haul, a fascinating road to hoe. I'll keep up with you. I wish blogs had existed in 1990 when I moved to France...

PS: I posted the recipe for the chestnut cream cake on Cuisine Quotidienne.

bcinfrance said...

I mean A long haul. I hate typos...

Pardon My French said...

Thanks for your nice comments...this blog community has really helped. It's nice to know there are others out there. (I know, I know, it's only been about a year but it feels really long). And, yay, thanks for posting the recipe! I looked on the official website but their desserts didn't look as appetizing as your picture. I'm all about the cooking, even if I'm not at all talented.

Kim/Thomas said...

"I have no idea what really has made this into a home for me, but S. and the cat are obvious components."

They say...home is where the heart is...I think, if you have love in your heart, you can have your home anywhere!

I have been enjoying reading your stories about teaching the kids, what a wonderful experience!

My frog here is an expat, just since october of 2004, its interesting for him and I to read about the other experiences of expats living there, as opposed to him being from France and living here!

Keep blogging, and I will keep reading!
From florida to france, was thinking about teaching kids, your ideas are fantastic, she should read them, I'll mention it to her! :)

And thanks for leaving me a comment on my page, I agree with what you said, to an extent:) I replied to the comment on that page, not sure if you had a chance to see it.
Take care! kim

LĂ©ons Life said...

Well welcome new-ish expat.

There are a lot of us old and new here in France and from all corners of the world too.

Enjoy blogging it very addictive

Pardon My French said...

Thanks for your comments! I've been enjoying your blogs as well. This has been very therapeutic, finding all these other expats out there.